2nd of February

One thing I hate about SLE is having to wake up, wanting to do a lot of things, yet having this limited amount of energy. Oftentimes I have read in other blogs that Lupus patients are always branded as lazy. We are not really lazy. We just get tired very easily as compared to healthy people.

I can compare my energy each day to an hour glass. Each sand is precious and while there are more sand, I hurriedly try to do as much as I can, until my body aches which tells me I am getting tired and I must stop what I'm doing or else I'll be suffering the consequences.

What consequences? Arthritis in my hands, feet and back. If I force myself into doing so many things, I even end up in chills, fever, nausea which I need to sleep off. It is probably because of the abnormal levels in my blood. And I'm not exagerrating. It usually happen.

As much as I want to live as normal as I want, its always there, trying to remind me every time that it doesn't have any plans of leaving soon. But as usual, I really don't let it win.